Pensieve

Have you ever had time to just simply ponder upon something? Or more so, ever gotten lost in your own thoughts? To the point where you can reaccount a certain event to the fullest, even the smallest of emotions that you felt?  You could be in such a contrary mood at the moment, such as angry or indifferent, but as soon as your mind wanders to that certain event, you begin to feel what you felt back then. It’s as if you’ve been transported back in time once more.

For example, I can still remember in 8th grade when we had to run those wretched Cross Country miles for Chaparral. One one particular run, it had just rained the day before, thus the puddles here and there. We had already begun running across the track and as always, I ran as close to the grass area as possible so I was covering the least amount of distance. Up ahead, I see a puddle and I simply leapt across it. A few seconds later, I heard a chorus of “oooo’s” and then a scream pierces through this saying “I’ll get you Anantha!”. I turn around and there’s Yufeng running behind me, shaking her fist, and completely covered in mud. I remember laughing hysterically to the point where I couldn’t keep running. And right now, just recalling on that event makes me smile and even laugh a bit to the point where my dear mother and sister think I’m crazy.

But honestly, it’s not crazy thought is it, the fact that we, as human beings, can use our memory device to create a sort of time-travel experience? Yes I know that H.G. Wells’ creation of the time machine is still too advanced for the present ages. But that doesn’t mean that the events that occur in the past are simply lost. In fact, they will always remain within both our memories and hearts. Body and soul. Instances when we so desperately wish that time would come to a halt so we may feel the way we are feeling for eternity do not have to be so. You don’t need a time machine, and you certainly don’t need a pensieve. All you need to do is live life to the fullest.

<3 A.

Living and Loving

Hi kids,

Can you believe that the weekend we waited for, for what seemed like eternity, is almost over? It just goes back to what I said in my last post. The days drag on when you are anxious for something to arrive, however, whatever you dread comes by the quickest. Today marks the first day of March and with March comes both the acceptance and denial letters. So what happens when you’re both excited and hesitant about the arrival of something? Does time just stop? I wish . . it would give me time to organize  both the thoughts in my head and the unfinished responsibilities on my plate. However, even when it seems like a day can’t go by any slower, time is still moving forward. So thirty days until we all know which colleges we can choose from. And on March 31st, we’re just 30 days closer to graduation. Ah graduation, such a bittersweet thought.

Whether one may be anticipating or dreading graduation on June 4th, I think we are all in agreement that these next three months should be the best. So why start or continue unnecessary drama? Either reconcile or let it go. Because at the end, it is NOT worth your precious time. This same mindset applies to other situations. Don’t keep yourself in the dark or let fear rule your life. I’m all about “carpe diem” and assertiveness, so if you want something to happen, GO out there and MAKE it happen.

“Well girl I’m sorry for disappointing you
But I’m done
With being up and down and pushed around”

Yeah, I know. Ewwww, Jonas Brothers reference. But hey, after seeing their 3D concert movie in theaters yesterday, they’re on my mind. Hmmm, most people ask me, “Why are you so obsessed with the JoBros?” Do you honestly want to know? Because no, I don’t think their music is the BEST in the world. In reality, I prefer other songs over theirs. And no, I don’t think Joe Jonas is the hottest guy in the world, although he is quite sexy at times. So why? Well, have you ever felt so vulnerable to the point where you can’t pull yourself out? When you know that life is moving on with or without you and you would do anything to just grab hold of something?

This is what I was feeling around the end of Sophomore year. Especially near my 16th birthday. Ha, my not-so-sweet sixteen. So one day, I’m turn on the TV and Disney Channel’s on. It’s a commercial break and a music video of the JoBros singing “Year 3000” comes on. Now mind you, I had watched the video before and wasn’t interested then. However, for some reason, my vulnerable state clutched on to the concept that day. It was as if, as long as I had something that was there and I could focus on, I wouldn’t lose sight of where I was going. I mean, I know the Jonas Brothers are way out of my range, but it was the fact that they would always remain there, along with their music, which made me smile. And before I knew it, I had become a fan. I know it sounds crazy and idiotic, but I’m not lying.

So all those feelings I felt, especially those when I went to see them in my first concert, came rushing back when I sat in those seats with my friends, singing and clapping like there was no tomorrow. And after seeing that movie, we movie-hopped into Confessions of a Shopaholic.  And everything I stated above about the JoBros is what the main character, Rebecca, thought about shopping. Anyway, so at the beginning she said something about how shopping, unlike a man, would always be there and never let you down. But at the end, it changed to, a man will never decline you like shopping. Haha, so yeah, it was another hopeless romantic movie. Much better than “He’s Just Not That Into You”.

“Dreamers, you see everything in color
While the world is getting darker
Love is on its way”

Damn, I sure hope love is on it’s way. Speaking of love, I have a question that’s been bothering me all day today and was asked by my brilliant mentee Diana. What is the difference between a boyfriend and a REALLY close guy friend other than physical means? So as to say, does physical means define the crossing over from close friends to boyfriend? I told Diana that in order to be in a relationship with someone, you need to have that emotional connection with them. Because without that emotional connection, you’re just friends with benefits. But then, what is that emotional connection that you can’t get with a really close friend? Something to think about.

I would write more, or at least something more inspiring, but I’m near tears right now as Diana and I talk about our last Leo moments together. Part of me wants to ask Tim if I could make a speech to the Leo Club at the end-of-the-year banquet. And it wouldn’t be a formal speech. It would be me addressing all those special moments we all had together. But 1.) I am 100% sure I would start crying. 2.) That was Arya’s idea and I really don’t want to rip it off. I have to do something though, because Leo Club isn’t just a club. It’s my life.

<3 A.

Youth Symposium 2009 (:

Hi kids,

So this weekend was the BEST and because there were SO many memories, I decided to write about the entire excursion (: So here it is, Youth Symposium 2009 (Feb. 13- Feb. 15).

By the way, it DID NOT rain at all this weekend. In fact it was warmer in Fresno and the weather itself was just beautiful. (:

Alright, so the year before, about 10 of us went to YS 2008, which was SO much fun. Now out of these 10 Leos, about 7-8 of us signed up for this year’s YS. And along with us “experienced kids”, we had another 12 Leos in going, for a grand total of 20. This included: Tim, Freddie, Diana, Mabel, Ayesha, Arya B., Gurpreet, Emily Liu, Kevin F., Brittany, Sahil, Cathy, Katherine, Emily Y., Max, Jessica C., Gary, Brandon C., Sachil, and of course MOI!

Because Tim, Freddie, Diana, Sahil, Kevin, Sachil, Emily Liu, and me had such a great time last year, we couldn’t WAIT for this year’s YS. For two weeks straight, we kept wishing that YS would be the next day. And then I started the fun emails to pump up EVERYONE (:. They started with “10 more days” and then an email was sent every day saying “4 days left!”, “3 days”, “2 days”, “1 day”. Honestly, those emails I sent out made me even MORE excited! Haha, and during school, when we’d see a fellow YS Leo, we would yell out “2 more days!!”. Lol, I think our chem class thought Diana and I were CRAZY for yelling out numbers daily. Tim would stop by every day during brunch to count down – and his enthusiasm was so contagious that even Young knew what was going down. And then FINALLY, it was Februrary, Friday the 13th. The day we would leave at 12 pm sharp (missing 4th period), to head off to Fresno! Wearing my Leo shirt, I went to each period, trying to remain calm and collected. But I couldn’t help it, the excitement was contagious. Coming out of Mr. Alcosser’s class, I saw Arya and we immediately said “0 DAYS!”. In 3rd period, I couldn’t stop saying “only two hours left” and by 4th period I was COMPLETELY gone. Haha, I felt so bad because Mrs. Clifford was having such a nice conversation about art with us, but at the time I couldn’t care less. My eyes were only for the clock, and once it struck 12, I got up and got OUT of there. So I ran to the Attendance Office where the rest of my Leo family was waiting and as we were signing out with the office, I just couldn’t stop jumping.

The initial plan was for my mom to come pick up Diana, Tim, Freddie, and me and take us to Ralph’s’, where the two vans we rented from Enterprise would be there waiting. However, Freddie dear forgot his pajamas, so we ended up taking a detour to his house. However, as quickly as he went inside, Freddie ran out and told us “my TV’s gone . . . someone broke in!”. The rest of us at first laughed, thinking it was a joke, but when we soon realized he was dead serious, we ran in to see that the burglar had broken in from the back and had stolen JUST the TV. However, my dear ambitious son Freddie was VERY COOL. He totally acted like a pro, calling his parents and calmly telling them the situation. He inspected and found fingerprints and since he made sure his parents had kept the box the TV came in, he reassured us that insurance would cover everything. I couldn’t have been prouder (:

Now after that little surprise, we jetted off to Ralph’s’ where we saw the rest of the Leo kids as well as the vans waiting. Diana and I suddenly got hit with excitement as it was like deja vu, seeing the incredibly huge vans there. We quickly loaded our luggage and split up into two groups. In my van, which was driven by Mr. Doogan a.k.a “The Dooganater” (copyright Arya B.), were the Tanakas, Mabel, Tim, Freddie, Ayesha, Sachil, Diana, Gurpreet, Arya, Emily Liu, and me. We jumped in and started our journey – after a quick stop at the gas station where Tim was able to get Arya’s iPod speakers.

Now, the plan was to get to Fresno through the Grapevine, however, due to conditions, it was closed and we had to take the scenic route. Yes, that meant our trip there was over 7 freakin’ hours! But actually, the time went by pretty quickly. In the beginning, we talked, listened to music, sang along, and other little random stuff. I just realized, we never actually used Arya’s “Would you rather . . . ” book. Honestly, I can’t really say what we did, but believe me, time passed by and I didn’t get to read at ALL. However, around the evening time, Freddie and I decided to just talk. So we took up the back row of the van and had a heart-to-heart conversation. I learned SO much about him and I think he learned some stuff about me too. I think we both were finally able to figure the other one out (: So even though the ride was so long to the point where we got to John’s Incredible Pizza Company at 8:30 instead of 6, I wouldn’t have had it any other way. I got closer to one of my sons (: and man, I just fell in love with my family all over again. And because our conversation was so deep, the others got jealous and started talking about enlightening topics, so there was a period where all of us were in a deep discussion. Emily Liu, Arya, and Freddie kind of killed it though by trying to take SO MANY freakin’ pictures of me. I swear, I am NOT photogenic and they know it, and yet they kept taking photo after photo! There were so many flashes >.< But I did receive a LOVELY call from the kids in the other van who sang “1,2,3,4” by the Plain White T’s for me. (:

Speaking of John’s Incredible Pizza Company, once we got there, we immediately went for the food. Now you know Chuck E. Cheese’s right? Well John’s Incredible Pizza Company is FOUR TIMES bigger. So we pig out on pasta, pizza (and the varieties were endless, there was even a Spicy Peanut Butter Pizza) and finally get to the games. To continue the tradition of last year, a bunch of us headed to Laser Tag. The guys went first and came back bragging about how someone got 500 something points. Then the girls went in and MAN, did we get wild! Lol, I was able to get a lot of people, especially Mabel and Emily Yu. Awwww, haha, Emily Y. was SUCH an easy target (: And so I come out afterward and found out I got 1,550 points! So that was pretty cool and we later on went to the other games. A lot of us got lucky, like Max, Diana, and Jessica, where we’d play a “chance” game and get 50-100 tickets. There were also those non-ticket games like “House of the Dead 4”. OMG, Diana and I were SO into it, and I kept smacking my gun to the panel because of the energy. Then all of us pooled in our tickets and got quite a big number. We ended up trading the tickets in for TWO (cute) stuffed lions. Haha, so another two to add to our lovely collection (:

After a quick frozen yogurt, we headed to Holiday Inn. After getting all the rooms settled, it ended up being 11:30 pm, so the group decided to meet in my room (which included Diana and Emily Liu) at midnight and hang out. All of us in our pajamas, we got into one room and basically socialized. We had a fascinating conversation with a “Mr. Peter” *ahem* <——- but I can say anymore, because what happens at YS, STAYS in YS. Let me just tell you though, I AM a believer! So after that, the many phone calls, and Max/Emily Yu doing the dirty (o.o), we decided it was time to end the party and sleep. Especially since we had to wake up at 5 AM and I had to make the wake-up calls. However, along with other distractions, there was this couple fighting, so Diana and I didn’t really sleep until 4 something >.< (Emily Liu was in Gurpreet/Arya/Gary/Brandon’s room watching Harold & Kumar).

At 5:40 AM, I get a “wake-up” call from Sahil (revenge for making him believe I was an actual employee last year). So I called the other kids and started getting dressed. We needed to wear formal black/white attire for the Flag Ceremony. The three of us (E.L, D. and me), go down for breakfast where I’m greeted by Arya as “Power Nazi” – grrrrrrrr. After eating, we headed off to the ceremony. Now the Flag Ceremony is basically when all the Leos bring up each flag that’s part of the Lions International community to a stage. After doing that, we left, while the Lions had their little gathering. We got back to the hotel where we had our “Team-Building Activity”, where we split into groups with other Leos, and worked together to make a model that stood up by itself (out of note cards and tape). So we met different Leos from different parts of California, but even with the great Kevin Ferris, our model ended up falling at the end. Ah well.

We quickly changed out of our formal attire into jeans and our YS shirt and met up again to meet the International President and his wife. I absolutely adore his wife and they both made a nice presentation. Tim received this REALLY cool signed banner which will be hung up in Mrs. Karasawa’s room. We then listed to a motivational speech given by the YS coordinator’s husband, which was quite inspirational. After that we were off to the Luncheon with the International President. But before that, Mrs. Tanaka (the cutest and GREATEST second mom in the world) gave us all little Valentine’s Day monkeys, one which we presented to the International President’s wife. The luncheon was okay, since we waited forever to be served as we were the Leos. For the vegetarian meal, I got this sandwich thing with all this squishy, black/green “supposed” vegetables. Lol, I had to ask Sachil if this thing before me was alive and have him test it before I ate it. It was . . . sufficient for my appetite, let’s just say XD. Then the dessert, some kind of cake, was given out. The cake was alright, really sweet though, so you had to eat it in moderate amounts. Now while I was eating this cake, the International President started giving out awards and then the Leo of the Year for California was being called out. I had already been notified that I was one of three finalists for this award, but being the practical person I was, I wasn’t betting that I was going to win – even if everyone else thought so. So he first called out the finalists. But he only called out the other 2 finalists’ names and that was it.

I automatically thought that I was out of the running and continued to eat my cake. However, the two tables filled with my DBHS Leos were suddenly enraged. Tim was seriously mouthing WTH over and over again and everyone else kept looking at me. Then the president says “And the Leo of the Year is . . . wait, is there an Amanda Singarahah  here?” Amanda. I kid you not. -.- So I starting walking up there and our two tables just shook as everyone jumped up screaming and yelling. I walked up and received this trophy that was modeled after an Academy Award . Thankfully my name was printed correctly on the trophy itself. I walked down and was first given a HUGE hug from Mrs. Tanaka. Then walking back to our tables, I was bombarded by hugs from all my Leos. I think THAT was the best thing, all those hugs from everyone, knowing that I was truly cherished.

After the awards ceremony, all the Leos left as the Lions stayed for the luncheon. Immediately when we got outside, everyone began to yell and scream again and pictures were taken. Really, that moment is and will always be indescribable. I <3 you guys SO MUCH.

Once we got back to the hotel, it was time for our community service project. Because it was Valentine’s Day, we made cards for Senior Citizens and got to go to Hope Manor to give the elderly our cards. HOWEVER, this retirement home that was supposed to be 10 minutes away ENDED up taking like 30 minutes because we couldn’t find it. And what’s funnier? We went to the local policemen to ask them where it was and they were like “I had no idea we had a retirement home!” -.- Haha, but the home itself. It was one of those things where you had to be there. The elderly’s faces automatically lit up as we personally gave them a card. One woman read my card thoroughly, looked at me and said the card made her day, and then gave me a hug. So many happy feelings (: Ahaha, and then my dear sensitive son, Tim, brought smiles to one woman’s face by singing Spanish Justos Lamos songs to her.

Now I’m not sure when, but during one of the times when went up to the rooms in our hotel, we ALL piled into one elevator. BIG mistake. The elevator became all possessed and stopped at a different floor, where poor Sachil was like SUCKED OUT. The doors quickly shut and the same thing happened at each floor. When it stopped at our floor, we had to jump out because the elevator wasn’t leveled with the ground. My god, that image of Sachil’s hand reaching out to us before he was sucked out will always remain in my head. Luckily he was fine and we all survived the possessed elevator.

So once we got back to the hotel, we were pretty wiped out. It was only 4 PM, but especially since we had not slept the night before, we all wanted to nap quickly before our Leo Social dinner. However, the coordinator insisted that we have a vote whether we could just chill or do another activity, and this vote could not take place until ALL the Leos were there. So yes, we wasted an hour just waiting until everyone was there. During that hour, most of the DBHS Leos were dead – poor Gary had passed out on the floor. But when the vote was taken – and duh, it was to chillax, we went up to our rooms. Supposedly the All-Star game was on, so everyone else was watching that, while I, with the help of Gary, Jessica, and Arya, tried to find a movie theater in Fresno where we could watch a movie after the social and where we can easily walk to. The closest one was 3 miles away -.- So at the end, Mr. Bell agreed to take us there and back.

But before that, there was the Leo Social. Now the coordinator had proposed that each Leo Club do a skit. Being the involved individuals we were, the DBHS Leos decided to make a skit. Lol, but being from DBHS, we also procrastinated, so 15 minutes before the social/dinner, we were making it up. Emily Yu, thank god, had already formed an idea, so she basically dictated us. Half of us were on the floor representing the lazy people who didn’t want to volunteer. Then the other half danced around to “Thriller” trying to convince them to join Leo Club. Then all of us got up and sang the “YMCA” song but instead, gave it a Leo twist with L-E-O-S! So after our sole skit, we sat down and ate our Italian dinner. Sachil couldn’t join us, because remember those cakes that you had to eat in moderation? Yeah, he ate THREE pieces, and therefore was up in his room sick. However, our conversation during dinner was VERY . . erm . . . INTERESTING. The details discussed cannot be disclosed, but I’ll let you know that I will never think of corn the same way again. o.O

After dinner, there were some powerpoint presentations and awards. Then the three Leo of the Year nominees got to pick raffle tickets. Now being the smart kids we were, the DBHS Leos had gotten a hold of A LOT of raffle tickets and filled them out. So the first girl picked out Mabel’s ticket. Then the second girl picked out a “DBHS Leo Club”  ticket (Gurpreet’s). So that’s $150 and $300 respectively. Then it was my turn to pick out the $500 winner. But of course, life has to have some downs to have some ups, so I ended up picking another club’s ticket. But it was ok, because we got SOME MONEY and man were we happy (: After that, everyone sort of dispersed, so we went up to our rooms to change for the movies.

However, we needed to create Gurpreet’s and Arya’s “vision” of “Money Rain”. So basically we took the hundred or so parts of the raffle tickets we kept and started throwing them around in the elevator like money to the song “Make It Rain”. We stopped whenever the elevator would open and everyone outside would just stare. At one point, someone was like “Do you want to come in”, haha, but everyone just thought we were insane. After reaching out floor, we picked everything up and ran to our rooms to change.

Now because 16 people out of 20 decided to go, we wanted to use only one van, since the van was a 15-seater and just squeeze. However, that meant most of us screwed the “seatbelt rule”. We went to the movie theater and bought our tickets for “He’s Just Not That Into You”. Now let me tell you, I am a hopeless romantic and all but even I fell asleep during the movie. That was the first movie in a theater I had ever slept through. But god, there was NO plot! I fell asleep and woke up and it was practically the same thing. Haha, most of the other kids fell asleep too, and the lucky children, Diana and Tim, left the movie all together while I was asleep. However, a few kids liked it, so I guess it was worth it. But afterwards, while bashing the movie, we unanimously decided to go on a caffeine run. Now Mr. Bell is NOT the world’s greatest driver and he had already gotten into two minor MINOR accidents during our stay. One of them was backing up into a pillar which left this dent. So we’re coming up to a red light and Tim/Gary start yelling to Mr. Bell that there’s a red light. But he doesn’t listen until the end and he basically slams the brakes which such force that little 90-pound Mabel flies forward. I quickly screamed, because after all, I am the “Mom” and after that we just all wanted to go back to the hotel. However, when we got there, the Tanakas were there and NOT happy. They wanted us to take both vans because everyone should have had a seatbelt. And after that little incident, I completely understood. They also got complaints from other Leos who said we just “took off” instead of staying for the “dance” that began at 9:30 PM. But honestly, none of us knew there would be a dance, and we, being the kind kids we were, had tried to socialize with the other Leos already. However, the Tanakas had a right to be concerned and I love them for that.

So then we went back to our rooms to shower and change. Tim and me later on went downstairs to try to find the Tanakas and on our way back up, this drunk man came into the elevator. He was holding like this hot plate cover and told us that there was only ice on the 7th floor. Then he started making statements about how he loved ice and began to spin the hot cover on this pen. So there was water splattering all over and it dawned on me that Tim and I had to get out of there ASAP. Thankfully our floor was just one up from when he stepped in, so as soon as our elevator doors opened, I just walked right out of there, making sure Tim followed. I swear, the crazies in our hotel were just o.O. In one room, there was someone smoking marijuana. And in another room we heard some erm . . huffing and puffing. You can be the judge of what that sounds like.

After that, we decided to watch Wall-E in my room because Freddie and Tim insisted that it is a sin that I haven’t watched Wall-E yet. So we’re watching it and people start leaving and coming in. The beginning was pretty good, but I was honestly getting really tired, and because I was already in my bed, I guess I just knocked out. Now Emily Liu and Diana had knocked out as well. And Gary . . well he fell asleep on my foot apparently. Sachil and Tim, being the sweethearts they are, put everything into place and closed the door, without waking us up. They even let Gary sleep because they figured he would wake up and go back to his room. But when I woke up at 4:44 AM, I felt something heavy on my foot and I look down and there was Gary. And he looked so peaceful sleeping! Haha, then Diana wakes up and we start talking about how all of us knocked out and poor Gary gets up and goes to his room. BUT, his room’s locked too! So finally I was like, Gary dear, just sleep here. So we all went back to sleep and when I woke up again at 7 and made my wake-up calls, we just all got ready while he slept. Haha, it was quite chill.

Speaking of wake-up calls, I call Katherine’s room, and she picks up, AND INSTEAD of responding to me, she kind of just makes this noise and places the phone to the side. So I hang up and call again and I keep getting a “this phone is in use at the moment”. Grrrrrr . . . so I had to walk to their room and knock MANY times before they finally woke up. Haha, still love you Katherine.

After everything was packed and ready, we headed down. Before we officially left, Mr. and Mrs. Tanaka had a talk with us. Mrs. Tanaka suddenly started crying telling us how much she cared about us. I swear, I was near tears as well and really, I just can’t believe how blessed I am to have her and Mr. Tanaka.

When we loaded up the vans, we had a few switches here and there. I realized that the other van, Mr. Bell’s, blasted Chinese music the way up, so Ferris and Brittany wanted out. Haha, so after those changes, we headed out. We finally stopped around Bakersfield to get some food because we didn’t have breakfast. However, the wait at Denny’s was so long, so Arya came up with a brilliant (yes, no sarcasm this time!) idea that we eat something small at Jack in the Box and then have lunch at Roscoe’s Chicken N’ Waffles. He had insisted that this place was THE place to eat since we left on Friday, so we decided to give it a try. As we drove towards Pasadena, I looked through all the pictures people took (and deleted the horrible ones . . . hehe) and I felt tears well up in my eyes because in reality, there probably wouldn’t be a Youth Symposium 2010 for me. And because the world is cruel, the ride back was much shorter because we didn’t have to take the scenic route. Roscoe’s was CROWDED, but because the wait was short, we decided to chill.

AND THEN I got to meet Bertha! Sachil’s 6-month food baby! Haha, so Bertha/Sachil, Freddie, Diana, Mabel, and I took the first seating and let me tell you, the waffles were DELICIOUS. The chicken was alright, but it was the WAFFLES that made it all worth it. Haha, Freddie practically made love to his waffles and Sachil scarfed down the waffles in 6 minutes so that both he and Bertha were satisfied. Even Mabel became ferocious (:

Speaking of Mabel, I think I corrupted her! That’s right, MOI! At the beginning of the trip she was so quiet and shy, but by the end, she was talking about robbing banks and shooting herself if she had a food baby like Sachil. I couldn’t be prouder!

As we grudgingly walked back to the vans, I had all these ideas of sabotaging them so that we could prolong our trip. That, or just have Mr. Bell drive XD. And then in a blink of an eye, we were back at Ralph’s, where it all began. We slowly unloaded, took one last picture together, and departed.

Honestly, this weekend, “Valentine’s Day weekend”, was the best. I spent it with all of my ‘valentines’ and I wouldn’t think of any other way to spend it. I love ALL of you kids! (: Haha, yes, even the Leo cat and lion. So thank you, Tim, Freddie, Max, Sachil, Emily Liu, Diana, Katherine, Cathy, Jessica, Emily Yu, Ayesha, Mabel, Brittany, Kevin, Sahil, Gurpreet, Arya, Brandon, and Gary. You guys made this weekend a memorable one and these memories wouldn’t have occurred without you.

<3 A.

Thnks Fr The Mmrs

Hello kids,

So for eight days now, I have been trying to write SOMETHING. I mean, I have all these thoughts clouding my head, but I couldn’t seem to take out one and thoroughly describe it. They all seem to come out in fragments. I think these fragments are the cause of my weird behavior lately. For example, I would be talking to someone, and suddenly, I would say something randomly because my brain completely switches to a different topic. Is there some kind of hidden meaning to this? For right now, I don’t. But when I come up with the resolution, I will definitely let you know.

So three current fragmented thoughts? Roses. Reform. Rain. Haha, the three ‘R’s’. Hmmm, so there has to be a connection correct?

“You know, this is the 21st century.” How many times have you heard or used that quote before? I know I’ve  worn out that quote by repeating it to my parents numerous times. The 21st century, where women are considered equal to men and technology has taken communication to another level. Where so many innovations have lessened the burden upon one’s shoulders, and yet, has produced conversations such as “Thnks fr the mmrs”. Don’t get me wrong, I love growing up in the 21st century where I have endless possibilities in front of me. However, I still wish there were aspects in life that remained old-fashion.

For example, the rain. Right now, it’s so bothersome for us, because we can’t get out and explore the world. But come on now, even if it wasn’t raining, would we really lift ourselves up from our beds, chairs, couches, and go outside? The only real difference is that the normally-sunny look inside your house has been replaced by a dark gloominess. But back then, adults and children the same, would go outside and dance in the rain, completely letting out all their worries. Rain has always been a purification factor in literature and yet, the regard for rain has changed over the years to the point where we see it as the cause of sickness and pain. 

Haha, the classic couple dancing in the rain. So cliche right? And yet I think it’s one of the most romantic things that can be done. Of course, it could be my hopeless romantic side talking. But another thing that lightens up my life? Roses. We have so many roses in the front of our house, and if you just took a stroll around there for a couple of minutes, you wouldn’t want to leave. Yellow, pink, orange, and red roses. Every single one is different, and yet they all hold the same meaning. That beauty can be as simple as a flower and if it’s worth it, all the negatives, such as the thorns, disappear. I absolutely adore roses, but sadly, the demon gardener cut all of them down to stubs, so now I must wait another month before they grow back. ):

So in these cases, I wish our lives weren’t accelerated and heightened. Instead of the guy coming to a girl’s house with roses to say “I love you” to her, we have drastically simplified to a mere text saying “I luv u”. Doesn’t that sadden you? Well, here’s a way to slowly reverse it. Whenever you’re not doing anything, as in, you’re just sitting around chatting or watching tv, do something that requires more effort. If you wanted to just say hi to a long-time friend, instead of writing a quick email, sit down and write a letter. Because at the end, it’s the effort that shows how much one really cares. (:

<3 A.

5 more days until Youth Symposium 2009!! (: (: (:

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